(~ Keep Singing ~)

Another rainy day/I can't recall having sunshine on my face/All I feel is pain/All I wanna do is walk out of this place/But when I am stuck and I can't move/When I don't know what I should do/When I wonder if I'll ever make it through

I gotta keep singing/I gotta keep praising Your name/ You're the one that's keeping my heart beating/I gotta keep singing/ I gotta keep praising Your name/ That's the only way that I'll find healing.

Sometimes, we know some things. And other times, we need to be reminded of them.

It seems like alot of my days are rainy and I can't remember what it was like to feel wanted, or accepted, as shallow as that sounds. It seems that everything I do is tainted with some sort of pain and the only thing that will relieve me of my discomfort is getting out of the rut - the place where I am - and start over again. Yet, despite this desire to leave, I cannot move - whether through fear or personal reasons. In times as these, I feel inadequate, unusable and drained - both spiritually and physically. I don't know what to do to save myself from this emotion, nor do I know how or when I'll stop feeling this way.

But there is a way to escape it.

I've gotta keep singing. I've gotta take my eyes off of the temporal and set them on the eternal. I have to constantly ask God why I am waiting, why I am still searching, why I am still hurt by the things I thought I have grown out of, and why I am convicted of so many things.

I need to realize this because this is the only way I will gain healing - not by knowing why I am hurt, but knowing that, ultimately, God deserves the praise. The end results to this will be worth the pain I feel now. The person I will be is not even comparable to the person I am now. And God is no match for my own will.

God, I pray that You will mold my life into being the person You can contour to fit Your perfect plan. I pray that I will not allow this discomfort to be in vain, but rather that You will become my bastion, my shelter, and my cleft.

I pray that you will embolden me to keep singing and praising your name, that I can look back and say that You were with me; that I walked with You in newness of life.

Empower me during my times of trials, when my spirit is weakest and I feel my strength waning. Help me to walk closer to You that I may know You and You may welcome me into the joy of Your Kingdom. I pray that i will open up to Your healing.