John Wayne

. I . Love . John . Wayne .


I think he is the most amazing guy ever. Like, ever ever.

Every movie he was in, he was a character who kept to moral standards.

Some people tell me they have a couple of his movies. Or they have heard of him, but never saw a John Wayne movie. Or, worse yet, they have never even heard of him.

This is a problem. What the heck is wrong with a society that idolizes people like Brad Pitt or Matt Damon over men like John Wayne?

Coping

Sometimes, the hardest thing to do is to realize that you are not in control. Lately, so many things have happened and I feel that if I can't fix it, I can be blamed for it. Don't ask. Thats how I am. It's how I've always been.

I guess I could try to fix it. In fact, I have. I am trying to pay off the fine. I have tried to call her. I even started tracing her to find out what exactly has been going on down there.

But I can't fix it. I have no money. She won't talk to me and even if i do trace her, what then? A road trip to Alabama?

No, I cant fix it. Maybe it was my fault to begin with...

Maybe I could have been there for her more, ya know? I was always the one that would angrily try to fix the problems she's caused. I got upset every time I knew she was on the phone with him. Maybe there was a time she just wanted to talk and I wasnt there to listen.

I guess my only option is to ignore it, as i sit here and eat pringles and drink my last snapple...