Sometimes, the hardest thing to do is to realize that you are not in control. Lately, so many things have happened and I feel that if I can't fix it, I can be blamed for it. Don't ask. Thats how I am. It's how I've always been.
I guess I could try to fix it. In fact, I have. I am trying to pay off the fine. I have tried to call her. I even started tracing her to find out what exactly has been going on down there.
But I can't fix it. I have no money. She won't talk to me and even if i do trace her, what then? A road trip to Alabama?
No, I cant fix it. Maybe it was my fault to begin with...
Maybe I could have been there for her more, ya know? I was always the one that would angrily try to fix the problems she's caused. I got upset every time I knew she was on the phone with him. Maybe there was a time she just wanted to talk and I wasnt there to listen.
I guess my only option is to ignore it, as i sit here and eat pringles and drink my last snapple...
No comments:
Post a Comment