Nostalgic

This evening, I was working. I looked out the doors and remembered seeing someone there. I quickly turned around because I didn't want to imagine him again.

I stood at my desk and looked across the department and remembered something else. I sat down quickly and focused on my work. I didn't want to remember that either.

Sitting at the computer - watching the screensaver - kicking off my shoes - twirling a pen in my hand -- I remembered having people stand around me. I remember them. I remember one in particular.

I picked up the phone. My fingers thoughtlessly tapped out the phone number i needed. I hung up the phone quickly, freaked out that I remembered.

My vision blurred and my throat felt weird.

Maybe I didn't want to remember some things, but they are a very part of me that I can't explain.

Statements and Conclusions at 12:44pm

It's so weird how people's opinions of other people change soooo much. There are so many people that I found annoying, weird and scary. But, after i got to know them, they were really cool.

Conversely, the people who i thought were awesome turned out to be kinda hurtful.

Conclusion:
When we set our requirements high, people are going to fail them.
When we don't expect things from other people, we know that those relationships/friendships are going to last.

So if i don't like you, that's actually a good thing.

Wow...

Guys, i had an amazing night. Well, not amazing. How about a 'wow' night?

There were mice in styrofoam cups, kiwi's over dorms and country music on the piano. What could be better?

ah, i wish for more evening like this one.